Blech!

Welcome to being pregnant! I feel aweful and today is especially bad.
My energy has flown the coop in its entirety. Although I don't feel like sleeping I can barely summon up the effort to do anything aside from flopping my lazy butt on the couch. It was all I could do to make it to my computer and that was because my need to thwart the boredom won out. I also feel nauseous today. I haven't hurled yet, nor do I believe I will, but my stomach is revolting against the hormonal changes by doing a dance. On top of all this I have a rambunctious toddler who adamantly refuses to let me be and a filthy house that is soon going to add to my upset stomach if I don't do something about it.
Oh, and I'm as cranky as a pig without mud.
I'm just a joy to be around today. Tomorrow will be better - right?

Positive

Need I say more? Yipee!!

Waiting

I'm officially 4 days late. I am starting to get excited and completely terrified at the same time. A few more days and then I will be all but certain.
My mind is totally working overtime: How long until my clothes feel tight? I will likely show sooner than with the first so how do I effectively hide it? I bought some new shirts recently and I must get as much wear as possible out of them. I have to start being very rigid with my eating, I don't want to gain too much weight... and my mind runs on.
Can this really be?

Hoping

I hate this. My mind is totally working overtime. My period should be starting today, maybe tomorrow. I run like clockwork so if I'm late.... No sign of it yet. I've had a fair bit of cramping over the past week which I don't usually have until the day of. Last night it was particularly bad so I thought for sure my negative proof would show up. I've also had some other wierdness I'll spare you the details of which cause me to wonder and hope.
I took a pregnancy test today but it didn't work, meaning the control strip didn't show so the instructions said that the result is then inconclusive. (???) It was negative but I don't believe it either way because it apparently didn't work. That's what I get for buying a cheap test I suppose.
Here's to hoping!

Eating Right

A couple of months ago I started a more diligent effort to live a healthier lifestyle. The exercise part I've done really well at but the eating...well...food is just too good!
My mom is also frustrated with trying to eat right and she has gained back some of the weight she worked so hard to loose a couple of years ago. We both know how to eat properly but the accountability factor is what is missing. It's especially hard when the two of us have husbands who aren't as concerned about what they eat. So we are going to answer to each other.
We're aiming for a realistic approach to eating. Yes we want results but with most "diets" people loose the weight and then gain a wack back again. We don't want that to happen to us. Besides, who can give up desserts and chips completely and not be grumpy about it? We want a lifestyle we can keep up. A few simple rules for ourselves:
1. Bring healthy snacks to avoid grabbing the donuts in the coffee room at our jobs.
2. Eat regularly to curb hunger and prevent possible binge eating.
3. If we have a treat make sure it is worth the calories and eat less of it.
4. Keep the amount of unhealthy food available at home to a minimum.
5. When we go out, exercise discretion and control.

Yesterday was day one and we did really well. My mom wishes to loose some weight. I, of course, hope to be pregnant soon where weight loss is not good. My goal is to be healthy for a healthy future baby and do what I can for my body to help it get through the process easier.

Ding!

Round 2.
The second month of trying is almost upon us and I'm excited. Last month I was still quite apprehensive but that has mostly passed. My husband and I spent the evening with some friends who have four kids with the youngest being 2 months old. Being around a little baby had us both melting and solidified our desire for another one of our own.
I also recently got the great news that a close couple-friends are finally pregnant after a year and half! I am thrilled for them but at the same time I'm thinking if it takes us that long this blog will get incredibly boring.

I made the mistake of getting on the scale this morning. Scales are such vile inventions and really should be made illegal. I've been faithfully running three to four times a week for almost two months and have not lost a pound!!!!!! What the heck? If I didn't actually feel good after running I would drop my treadmill off of a cliff and cheer at its death. Do I eat that badly? Or too much? I know I said that my original goal with exercising and eating healthy was to prep my body for pregnancy with weight loss being secondary. But seriously, shouldn't at least two or three pounds be gone? Shouldn't my pants feel a bit looser?

Strike One

I was at the doctor yesterday and although that was not the reason for my visit I asked if they could do a pregnancy test. I figured,
"Why not?" I was there anyway and had been experiencing some nausea (no missed period yet though).
Negative.
I'm not surprised. Our attempts have been very infrequent. I said to my hubby that we'll have to give it a little more effort to even give us a hope. I know it only takes once but more does up one' s chances.
A vacation to forget about life and relax would also help but that' s not going to happen.